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you are a horse running alone
and he tries to tame you

compares you to an impossible highway
to a burning house
says you are blinding him
that he could never leave you
forget you
want anything but you
you dizzy him, you are unbearable
every woman before or after you
is doused in your name
you fill his mouth
his teeth ache with memory of taste
his body just a long shadow seeking yours
but you are always too intense
frightening in the way you want him
unashamed and sacrificial
he tells you that no man can live up to the one who
lives in your head

and you tried to change didn't you?
closed your mouth more
tried to be softer
prettier
less volatile, less awake
but even when sleeping you could feel
him travelling away from you in his dreams
so what did you want to do love
split his head open?
you can't make homes out of human beings
someone should have already told you that
and if he wants to leave
then let him leave
you are terrifying
and strange and beautiful
something not everyone knows how to love.


- Warshan Shire

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Net Worth as of January 16, 2014
Assets

RRSP
: $3105.26
TFSA: $842.90
RRSP II: $102.44

Total: $4050.60

Liabilities

Credit Card
: $465.76
Credit Line: $5966.83

Total: $6432.59


Previous Net Worth: ($2723.41)
Current Net Worth: ($2381.99)
Change in Net Worth: $341.42


I knew this wasn't going to be the best pay period to make big changes. This whole month is a bit of a wash. Registration for Tough Mudder with tomorrow's paycheck and registration for a half marathon with the paycheck after that, plus I need to stock up on protein powder and pre-workout tomorrow, so there goes another $70.

But I did good with what little I had this last paycheck. Kept my unplanned, useless spending to under $30. I take out $40 cash each pay period which has to last me all pay period, and I didn't touch any of it. If I keep saving the $40 and not buying random shit I don't need, I'm going to reward myself with some Lululemon running crops at the beginning of February. Because all I hear about is how great they make butts look and that even if you have giant thighs that rub holes in the inner thighs of your pants, this doesn't happen with these pants. We'll see if I can continue bringing frugal and what-not.

I've also decided that every time I made a $1000 improvement in my net worth, I get to reward myself with something I want, something between the $100-150 range. I've got my eye on some Black Milk leggings, I want a barbell with adjustable plates, I could use a new DVD player... so definitely incentive to keep sticking to my budgets and kicking my credit line's ass.

We'll start this $1000 deal at the rounder number of ($2380) rather than ($2381.99). So I get to buy myself a little gift at the ($1380) mark.

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I have to do a compile some survey data as part of an assignment for statistics class. We are allowed to do 'convenience sampling' and I'm more than a bit anti-social and don't like approaching random strangers and asking them questions.

So, if any post-secondary people on my friends list want to take five minutes to fill this out, I would be extremely grateful. As of right now, I need six more respondents. Thank you!

Poll #1458377 Questionnaire

Currently, are you a full-time or a part-time student?

Full-Time
6(75.0%)
Part-Time
2(25.0%)

How do you get to school?

Car
4(50.0%)
Public Transport
2(25.0%)
Other
2(25.0%)

How long does it take you to get to school (in minutes)?

What is your major?

How many courses are you currently taking?

1
1(12.5%)
2
3(37.5%)
3
1(12.5%)
4
3(37.5%)
5
0(0.0%)

What is the average number of hours you spend in school per day?

How many hours do you spend doing school work per day?

What is your current grade point average?

Amount of time you spend on the Internet (on computer or smart phones) per day?

What is your current employment status?

Full-Time
2(25.0%)
Part-Time
2(25.0%)
Not Working
4(50.0%)

Do you own a car?

Yes
4(50.0%)
No
4(50.0%)

Do you own a bicycle?

Yes
0(0.0%)
No
8(100.0%)

Do you smoke?

Yes
0(0.0%)
No
8(100.0%)

What is your age as of last birthday (years)?

Number of siblings?

1
1(12.5%)
2
2(25.0%)
3
5(62.5%)
4
0(0.0%)
5
0(0.0%)

Who is the person you respect the most?

What is your favorite beverage?

What is your height in centimeters?

Record gender of respondent

Male
0(0.0%)
Female
7(100.0%)

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Current Music: You Know What They Do To Guys... | MCR

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Once upon a time, weren't rename tokens only 5 dollars? Or was that just my imagination? Or perhaps I'm confusing them with the price paid for extra userpics?

At any rate, my name is now changed. I finally found one I like. It's from a Sylvia Plath book :)

So I used to be _rgap48_ and am now loverofunreason. Just a heads up so people aren't confused.

Because really, it's about time I shed the silly username I had since grade nine or so (especially considering its meaning and numbers don't carry much significance at al anymore).

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I'm pretty bitchy. I swear a lot. I have a dirty mind, and much of this journal is quite perverted. However, my life is never boring.

Comment if you'd like to be added. Most of the time, I'll add you back. Also, let me know if you're here for the fan fiction, the real life stuff or both. That way, I can friend you according to that =)

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Current Music: The Ding Dong Song | Gunther

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